Broken Hallelujah

With my love and my sadness
I come before You Lord
My heart’s in a thousand pieces
Maybe even more

Yet I trust in this moment
You’re with me somehow
And You’ve always been faithful
So Lord even now

When all that I can sing
Is a broken hallelujah
When my only offering
Is shattered praise
Still a song of adoration
Will rise up from these ruins
I will worship You and give You thanks
Even when my only praise
Is a broken hallelujah

Oh Father, You have given
Much more than I deserve
And I have felt Your hand of blessing
On me at every turn

How could I doubt Your goodness
Your wisdom, Your grace
So Lord hear my heart
In this painful place

Hallelujah
I lift my voice
Your Spirit moves
I raise my hands
I reach for You

From South to North

So much have happened since Friday 11-11-11 @ 11:11...it seems like the time just flew by in a super speed, and I did not even have time to capture the moment. I am sitting here, savoring the night in the north, as I am used to...alone, and lonely, wondering how the south is...how the pines are...cherishing the memories and reliving them in my heart. Little by little, one by one.
I have lost it last week. It was hard - to live a dream for a moment, to breathe, to have what you hoped for, to hold, to feel and to touch...to use all of your senses to see the 3-D image instead of 2-D image, to taste, to smell...to be reassured that it is not just a vision of heart, but the fact it is real, it lives within me...and then, to die all over again, to fake smiles while inside of you your heart is crushed into pieces...one would wonder if this was ever necessary...I have lost it.
Now living in silence, I long for the word. I hope for a message being sent through the minds...I wonder if it comes...I am sitting here, ready to share, ready to pray...waiting and hoping that things have not changed, hoping that love still prevails...that love still lives. I miss you, North Carolina, and I love you!